Love to give to Daz #alone and Daz welcomes and reuires it Yannis When Daz reaches out to Stefan #and Daz welcomes and it from Yannis When Daz reaches out to Stefan affection he is brushed away Stefan making it clear he is only able to relate to Daz in a sexual way There s an interesting ichotomy in Daz s character He clearly Shooting for a Century derives great pleasure in providing support for his loved ones whether that support is emotional or physical he willingly puts his own needs second I found it bittersweet the times when heid reach out to Stefan and was rebuked Daz handled it well but it clearly hurt him I felt like I got to know Yannis uite well through Stefan s eyes but I was left wanting to know a little bit About Daz This Is The First Book Daz This is the first book Matthew J Metzger I ve read his I, Partridge descriptions of the rough sex the self abuse and the intricacies of the relationships completely enveloped me I was so invested in Stefan and could completely understand how he was feeling to the point it just hurt my heart I llefinitely be looking to read by Metzger Sex in C Major is one story that s going to stay with me for a long time This was a challenge and an eye opener trigger warnings for Shadow of the Templar dub con suicidal ideation Master slave relationship menage open relationships etc The BDSM is central and intense the pain and the growth the intensity of the challenges and risks Stefan faces as a trans guy whose fantasies include pain and non con sex kept me glued to the page Part of the tension for me as a reader here was knowing how horrifically wrong things could have gone for Stefan had he met anyone other than Daz Knowing all the parts of the broken mess that is Stefan that could have been eased by having family and medical care that gave him what he needed instead of rejection and years ofenial And knowing that there are trans guys and trans women out there whose lives walk this kind of high risk wireStefan lost all of his family and friends when he came out He buys his hormones illegally with almost all the money he has and has to hope that the stuff he is shooting up is really what it claims He craves being Unforgiven (Warriors for the Light dominated being used non con fantasies and ownership and even then he s aromantic so heoesn t want mushy love in the mix His needs are hard and Buried Sins (The Three Sisters Inn, dark and as someone whose physical transition is in the early stages he can t find men who will treat him as he craves and yet accept him as a gay man And then there s the fact that he gets physical pleasure from his female anatomy even as he hates having it and hates attention paid to it Working through the betrayal of his body and his brain pushes him to the brinkDrunk in a bar he blurts a mix of this out to a tough looking man courting actual rape and inesperation to silence the needs that are Six Days in Leningrad driving him crazy By the grace of fate it s Daz whom he finds Daz who likes toominate who knows about trans guys and who holds to the sane and consensual end of BDSM The Darkness despite walking the sharp edge in his practices Daz takes arunk Stefan home partly to keep him safe And although Daz turns out to have a boyfriend at home that guy is asexual and he s okay with Daz meeting other needs elsewhere And so Flyboy develops a lopsided triangle of a relationship with sex and pain andominance and need imperfectly balanced among them There s a lot of graphic BDSM sex here as Daz uses Stefan s body in harsh ways that let them A Dark Sicilian Secret discover what Stef needs and wants and can handle and cannot Yannis Daz s asexual aromantic partner has an interest in experimentation and in music that connects with Stefan s one true love his cello but mainly through sex and pain as well There are so manyark and Wolf Creek Homecoming (Wolf Creek difficult parts to Stef s uest to become the man he knows he should be and most of them are navigated in the arena of BDSM This is not a book where that is tempered by sweetness But because it is so well written I felt compelled along accepting much that is way outside my personal comfort zone as necessary to Stefan Read this book for aeep heartbreaking fascinating and ultimately successful look at a trans guy with an intense need for pain and omination and almost no resources Meet the men who meet those needs in the process balancing ones of their own Not a classic romance but a fitting of three jagged edges together in a shape that is smoother and functional than any of these guys alone I felt a lot and learned a lot as I shared Stefan s journey 4 Stars BDSMMasterSlaveSerious KinkHumiliationThis book seriously tested my limits but I found it really addictiveFull review soon I m not going to rate this mostly because I on t know how to as it At the Italians Command defies the rating scale It s not particularly likable nor is it a romance in the traditional sense Were there aisturbing rating scale this would blow the lid off that because Sex in C Major is truly Oh Baby! disturbing on multiple levels I m guessing that lingering feeling of une. Stefan's head Daz can stop Stefan’s selfestruction but not the fear that fuels itStefan needs to know who he is before he can accept what he is And it's Yannis Daz's aromantic asexual stern and sarcastic partner who has the answer. ,
No rating DNF 98%This book seriously #NEEDS TO HAVE A WARNING ON #to have a warning on I Can Handle #I can handle but I just Her Rancher Hero (Saddlers Prairie, didn t expect this DNF 12% Stefan needed to find some safe kink friendly therapycounseling group andor individual and get his mental shit straight first before finding a play partner or starting a relationship He was in the middle of hormone replacement therapy experiencing tremendous mood swings including strong sexual urges He was not working He was spending his government assistance on shots marijuana and alcohol instead of rent He was majorlyepressed He was too self focused and needy in the wrong way He was too raw emotionally
didn t his thinking emotions and reactions so there was no way I could buy into the story NEEEEEEEEEEED 45 star review by The Blogger GirlsEvery once in a while I like to push some boundaries and read and hopefully learn about something I would not typicall Review and Book contain mentionsdepictions of rape fantasies epressionsuicidal thoughts as well as hard core BDSM with a Masterslave relationship Please be aware of this before continuing and if you feel these might trigger you it would be a good idea to avoid both this review and the book Stef lost his whole family when he came out as trans Now all he has is a crappy flat a stolen cello and a box of illegal testosterone shots because he can t see octors giving him the mess that he is the real eal And while the shots work sorta they also have fucked up his sex How to Become a Virgin drive enough that he is almost constantly in need of sex Which might sound awesome but it is not Especially when the kind of sex Stef wants is likely to get himumped in a Dangerous Disguise (Cavanaugh Justice, dumpster for some poor trashman to find threeays later If the fantasies of being owned and treated like nothing than a sex toy are not the thing that The Bosss Baby Surprise does it then theude finding out that Stef is trans and mostly untransitioned at that will probably o the trick But then a night of rinking and ill advised blurting of said fantasies lead him to Daz Who might just possibly be everything that Stef has ever wanted if Stef can ever actually admit the truth to himself let alone to a man he Command Performance desperately wants to call MasterWow Ion t even know how to review this book It was one of the most entrancing boundary pushing crazy beautiful yet Loveknot (Welcome to Tyler, dark things I ve read in years The content can get so extreme at times that if the author had been even an inch less careful in the construction of the characters that it would have been a colossal mess and yetdear gods and yet there were moments where it felt like I forgot how to blink let alone breathe This is a long book but it never felt like it There was an ever present need to keep pushing further into this story and these charactersAnd these charactersoh gods these charactersStef is so heartbreaking He is a mess Watching him battle everything inside him tore out my heart Because I could get it even if it was also something I could never want That the author got me to a point where I could understand Stef s need to be nothing than an object to his Master is amazing There were so many points where this book would push at my boundaries especially the scenes where Daz ordered Stef to service other men and a scene at the end which was painful to read because it was so over my lines but there was never a moment I considered skimming the page I needed to read it to feel it all to be there with Stef even if a part of me was going nope nope shit no There really is not way toownplay how The Perfect Blend dark this book gets There is a tonne of rape fantasy total power exchange stuff in this book It gets graphic It gets painful But every part of it is also so real so visceral that I couldn t look away And because Stef is trans there are a lot of scenes that involve Daz using every part of Stef s body Which were actually the hardest parts of this book for me But also the way it affected Stef how he reacted and was forced toeal with it made it worth the way my stomach would get all twisted up by itThis book is all in Stef s point of view which I think was at times hard but exactly the right choice There are very few moments of release from the tension and angst building up inside him and us as we go Except for those moments where Stef is a peace which was brilliant because it made me so tied up in the story that at times I forgot that I was not actually the one going thru all this I can not emphasize enough how brilliant this book was in making you part of the story even for the parts that were near painful to read because of how visceral the emotions were in some of these scenes The part in the middle where Stef has his breakdown had me in tears Part of it might be because there is so much about the truthful nature of the mindfuck transgender people can go thru that I personally relate to but it was also just. Stefan has fantasiesHe knows chasing those fantasies is only going to end in isaster but he can't seem to stop his self estructive spiral He’s a transgender man struggling to come to terms with the intersection of his identity and. Down to the amazing writingi idn t
In This BookAlso I Thinkthis bookAlso I think book has some of the best written epictions of aromantic relationships that I have ever read Which granted has been like a grand total of two books in recent memory but still It is fucking awesome This book is not a typical romance in so many ways but the relationships here are as real as anything I have ever read This story embraced fully what it was reveled in it and made me so absolutely enthralled that I kind of want to recommend it to everyone Even if I know that the content #is going to mean that some people should probably stay as #going to mean that some "people should probably stay as away as possible There is just so much "should probably stay as away as possible There is just so much that is so good The representation of cultures gender identities and sexual or asexual characters is so fucking amazing Like I was stunned how good it was I knew Matthew J Metzger could write I ve loved the books of his I have read so far But this This fucking book man I was blown awayI m giving this story like all the recommendations that I can but with the proviso you know exactly what you getting into when you pick it up I am amn serious about the content of this book when it comes to the Masterslave and rape fantasy parts They are a major aspect of this book and not just a scene or two If that is not something you are willing to read Rayuan Sang Bos [Seduced By the Boss] do not pick up this book Stef is alsoealing with some pretty heavy Bachelor to the Rescue (Home to Dover, depression along with a couple scenes of self harm and you need to be aware of that as well This is aark story filled with some pretty graphic sex scenes but it is also probably the best written BDSM book I ve ever read Read at your own risk but the reward is also uite worth it This book was provided free in exchange for a fair and honest review for Love Bytes Go there to check out other reviews author interviews and all those awesome giveaways Click below This was a very Secrets At Maple Syrup Farm dark read Trulyisturbing on so many levels but also kind of addictive It s even hard to classify this novel as a romance Very interesting in terms of gender Whispers Of The Heart dysphoria sex transition polyamory asexual and aromantic orientationThe book is heavy on the sex and with very extreme BDSM content painful and non con sex humiliation breath play biting to the blood bareback sharing force play and humiliation This seriously tested my limits but I found it eye opening since this is all Stefan sesires and this is his journey to coming to terms with his own sexual needs What really affected my opinion about this book only two stars for a uite complex read is using BDSM as therapy for mental illness and alcohol addiction And a supposedly experienced om playing extreme BDSM scenes with an unsettled rookie with only a safeword and after 5 minute talk about limits Basically without an aftercare without mentioning about safety state of health permission for barebacking needs and wants Also Daz s sexual stamina was few times uestionable appropriate for paranormal sci fi I m actually sorry for only two star and I ll read another book by this author but this is my honest rating Sex in C Major came close to the edge of even my comfort level so thank you Matthew J Metzger for taking me on this journey and letting me live a small piece of Stefan s life with him I blew through a range of emotions from shivers to shock from hope to horror and all the stuff in between It s been a long time since I ve literally cringed and some of the cringe worthy stuff that Stefan puts himself through is close to overwhelming Stefan s journey battling so much self hatred and utter confusion stems from his need to understand himself Growing up feeling betrayed by his body and thrown out of his home by his verbally abusive mother he s now living in near poverty as he begins his transition process on his own He is overwhelmed by his sexual fantasies which confuse and frustrate him and is enraged by his body s response to stimulation of his female organs Stefan is having an impossible time figuring out how to get what he needs and to feel okay about having it Stefan meets up with Daz who is willing to give him the relationship he craves Daz provides the total power exchange Stefan has to have but insists on limits to keep him safe Daz can satisfy Stefan s esire to be reduced to an object a sex toy and give up complete control to his master but that is only part of what Stefan needs He s having trouble both with coming to grips accepting his esires are okay and navigating his tumultuous journey through his transition This is where the really interesting parts of the relationships in this story come into play Daz s long time partner and live in boyfriend Yannis has led a very complicated life Identifying as asexual Yannis views on romance sex and love are incredibly interesting and explain the bond between Daz and Yannis in such a beautiful way Yannis has affection and. His sexual fantasies as a submissive He needs someone to take control before he loses it completelyDaz can take control He can teach Stefan everything there is to know about sex and submission but for some reason he can't get inside. .